Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Enough

I saw you in my dream last night again
You stayed for a while
I woke up with your taste in my mouth
Running through my bloodstream

This morning I sweat you off running the jungle
I swam Waimea washing you away
I duck dived into an infinite blue sea
Carrying you Rock away from my shore

It's been so long since I've been trying to erase you
To hide you in my drawer of precious things

I've accepted it to be true
I've left destiny up to time to take care of it
I was trying to save you for later
But I'm finally giving up on believing

I'm forcing myself to stop feeling this thing
This tricky intuition that made you so special
And all the vulnerability that abruptly overflew off me
All the intensity pumping my chest
All my guards surprisingly put down
I've been turn inside out

The unbreakable warrior peeled off its skin
And that loving little girl so well-chained to one of my corners has been suddenly freed
I've became so tender through liking you

It's no fun liking alone though

I'm convincing myself I'm wrong
I must be tripping
It has nothing to do with fate
It must be just that I'm probably sore from rejection
It must have not anything to do with that annoying feeling that told me
You felt right

It can't be right

It's been too long that I've been sewing this trap for myself
Feeding you in me
Closing my slot without fulfilling it

I'm so tired of liking you

I'm letting it go